Catching up in 2007

Gosh it's been a while since I have posted. I really need to get my thoughts down so I am going to start journaling and see how long I can follow through for.

January 31st we had our first fertility appointment and I love my new doctor. He is very warm and inviting but also doesn't beat around the bush. Right off the bat we found out that my blood tests from back in October were 'off'. My doctor said they were just fine but I guess that's why we have specialists in any given field right? My FSH was 9.5 and my estradoil was 100. In researching those number the FSH appears just fine BUT estradoil can sometimes mask a high FSH level so I'm not so sure. My doctor happens to respond to emails so when I asked him he said that it's those 2 elevated numbers combined with my shorter cycles that really point to a reduced ovarian reserve (aka I don't have many eggies left and what I do have may not be that great). He did an ultrasound and found 3 antral follicles on the left and 4 on the right. I have no idea if that's a good or bad thing at that particular time in my cycle though. He suggested we start of with fertility meds, perhaps Femara, perhaps Femara combined with injectibles or perhaps just the injectibles. First off, I needed Cd3 blood work which was done on February 5th and an HSG (Hysterosalpingogram) which will be done on the 9th (not looking forward to that). Then we meet with Dr. H again on the 19th to go over all of the new test results and set up a protocol for the months ahead.

I should mention Randy had his S/A done earlier in January and his numbers were awesome - the issues we are having are 100% my issues not his.

This morning I am feeling very anxious about it all. I realized looking back that my October tests were done at Cd2 which means they are actually higher than what they should have been back then...now I wonder how bad they are now. I had a dream/nightmare that Dr. H called and said my FSH level was 16 and my estradoil was 112. Those numbers would kill any chances of having a baby so even though it was just a dream, I am feeling down today.