I talked to Dr H today. He had called yesterday but I was taking a glamorous mid-afternoon nap with peanut (seriously the best sleep I'd had in weeks). He totally agrees we need a break. We have been practically cycling there for 6 months now. I told him yes I was mentally and physically exhausted. He of course feels very bad that this cycle failed. He was very disappointed with this protocol - he said it was the most aggressive he could do and for the fall cycle we will go back to the flare. I asked him if no suppression had anything to do with it and he said no. So some plans for the future. I am going to get the recanilization done this month. He said the next 3 months my ovaries will actually have some "oomph" behind them and he totally agrees that we should try on our own while we 'recover' (I had emailed him questions so he was just answering them via phone). I had asked about DHEA and also TCM and he supports me taking both. He doesn't feel like my ovaries have changed drastically or anything - I was surprised as I expected the donor talk but it never came up. I was prepared though because embryo adoption is something I am actually considering at this point - I mean what's the difference between that and adoption except I actually get to be pregnant? All pro's if you ask me but anyhoo it never came up. He said yes to DHEA, it's now legal in Canada so he is writing me up an rx that I can get compounded in Victoria. He said he also supports me looking into TCM with Stephanie so I will fire an email off to her when I am up for it.
It wasn't a long conversation. He did reiterate how important it is that we stay in communication...I guess by not taking the calls on Friday he may have been worried? He is a good doctor and I'm lucky to have someone watching out for us and willing to work with us. He said call, email, make an appointment, whatever I want to move forward. I just want a break for now but I need to also get my new rx, talk to Stephanie and Caroline and then get this recanilization done. THEN I can have a break and get back to normal life for a few months. I can't wait!